Feeling lonely…

10 Apr, 2026

I feel like I have always been strange. When I was very small, like around 4-5 years old, I have always wanted to be friends with everyone. But as the years went by, I have realized that I’m simply not capable.

Everyone got friend groups, boyfriends, etc. I was not capable enough to be in a friend group and have them like me. I suppose I am not a very likeable person and that is okay. I do not feel pity for myself. I’m just expressing my disappointment.

Those people grew up and they formed life long bonds with their friends, got into marriages and even had babies. What did I do? I chose to chase after my own future even though all I really wanted was to feel loved and appreciated.

No amount of titles, prestige, money will replace the warmth of friendship and family but I try anyway. I tried and I also failed because I am still broke. I don’t feel good.

Now everyone has a family yet I am utterly alone.