Dating Update: I broke up with my bf, yay!
A while back, my 'bf' and I broke up after around 2 or 3 years together. Actually, I guess we were never really together. At least, not in a way that felt secure and established. Our relationship status changed according to his mood. One day, he would be thinking about marrying me and introducing me to his mother; the next day, for no reason at all, he would downgrade me to the status of a 'wh*re' he is messing around with. He made sure to tell me when my status would change as well.
I knew back then that I could not accept his abusive treatment, and I would constantly communicate with him about it. Everything fell flat.
'You don't understand! I get frustrated because you don't do anything for me,' he would say. I would ask what he meant by that, and he expected me to cook and clean for him daily. I handled my own expenses. The most unfair part is that I paid for my own Netflix and AI subscriptions, which he used consistently! When he asked me for money and I told him no because I did not have money at the time, he criticized me and would not let this go for about a year.
He felt happiest when I treated him like my child, someone who demanded all my energy. I felt terribly exhausted and bitter toward him all the time. He was disrespectful, lacked emotional regulation skills, and had extremely bad communication. What made it worse was that he never even knew how to discuss anything deep. He was very stupid (I am sorry, but this is true).
The absolute worst part is that he told me that I am unlovable, that he never loved me, and was just using me because he was lonely.
I guess I was, too. So this trash relationship is over. For good..