Dating update (Delulu).
I feel embarrassed. Why is it that when I like someone I make a fool out of myself? I feel like everyone else is graceful yet I am the only one who is clunky and out of place. I met someone and for the first time in my life, I felt understood. I felt that I understood him but then shit went down. I do not feel like I belong anymore to any place.
Even when I was small, I did not feel that I belonged in my country. I do not understand what I should do to fit in. I feel like this is really cheesy but I feel like everyone in the world belongs to a specific set of people except me. I’m the anomaly in the dataset.
I wish that I could truly feel that I belong in a specific community or a group of friends. I feel so isolated from other people. Don’t get me wrong, I have a lot of friends. But I never felt like they truly get me until him. I truly felt that I was meeting my future husband. Delulu.